Aug 10, 2024
The bird now lives here.
A lovely bird has nested in my thoughts. I enjoy its presence and the gentle feeling and the nice chirps.
Artist’s Blog
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blue kiss – raw text
Aug 10, 2024
Here is a poetic text about Blue Kiss. I’m in my writing process. But it doesn’t have any rhymes yet. The challenge is to maintain the meaning or to hide a few dark truths behind metaphors.
Blue Kiss
(Verse 1)
In a dimly lit room filled with the scent of ink and paper,
Out of nowhere, amidst the darkness,
The impulse to lose a thought in the blue,
At the peak of the cliff, never felt so happy,
I’ve forgotten what the abyss looks like,
I don’t need to run from death,
I can walk past it as if nothing matters.(Chorus)
The barstool at the counter leans,
Just like the chair at your desk,
Facing you, an empty seat, inviting.(Verse 2)
In a flashback, you see yourself sitting here,
Making a strong drink,
With smudged black eyeliner and mascara,
On the glass, a dark red lipstick mark,
It’s dark, a little wicked and forbidden,
Free from your fears, you kissed him,
The decayed taste of death lingers in your mouth,
It smells of smoke in the room, and it’s hazy,
Like your vision, you take a brush for the canvas,
The blue paint runs in the water, like the color in the cocktail,
You’ve mixed up the glasses.(Chorus)
In one glass is harmless blue paint,
And in the other, the deadly mix,
The powder dissolves, like the smoke in the room,
You become one with the substance flowing through your veins,
Every sensation dulls and fades like sound,
You stumble, yet you perceive the fall in slow motion,
You focus on walking while you’re already on the ground.(Verse 3)
You look at the clock and the date,
The future is now,
The black ink under your eyes has been wiped away,
But the dark shadows still remain,
The dark circles can’t be erased,
Your lungs strain to catch a breath,
The memory of the blue triggers apnea,
You gasp as if you’ve run a marathon,
Your heavy heartbeat runs like an old car,
The tank didn’t quite make it to the end,
You stepped out of the car; it wasn’t the end,
And for the rest of your life, you just keep walking,
Indifference sets in, so often left behind,
So often hurt and disappointed,
So often humiliated and degraded,
But it doesn’t matter anymore; you just keep walking.(Verse 4)
You take a seat at this table,
Inviting yourself and pouring a drink,
Longing for the days when melancholy inspired your art.
Though those times are gone,
The memories linger like shadows in the night.
You wish to embrace that bittersweet feeling again,
And you dip the pen in the black ink,
You ponder the bittersweet nature of memory.
You take a sip from the drink and kiss the blue,
But you fear not just the drink,
But also the blue feelings.
You don’t know if you could go through that again.
Right now, you would only take small sips,
In the past, you would have downed
The whole drink with a strong alcohol mix
And other ingredients, like ‘Kiss of Death.’ Literally.
The drink lingers for ten years afterward,
And you can’t shake the taste of death;
It’s constantly present.
The effect sets in slowly,
Like the soothing touch of the Kiss of Death. -
mini harmonica
Aug 8, 2024
Soon I’ll be in Berlin. I want to go to that vintage store where I saw this necklace with a mini harmonica as a pendant. I wanted to buy it back then, but I thought I shouldn’t spend so much money. Now I regret that I didn’t buy it. I hope that the store will still be there and have this pendant when I come back.
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Waltz of the Leaves – music poem part 7
Aug 5, 2024
Verse 1
Sitting at this table, been writing for hours,
For you, I’m risking everything, as my hand cowers.
I write through the night, that reveals me like red wine,
my weakness is being too honest and way too kind
Finding no rest, I choose the ink over sleep,
vivid verses, but between the lines, they dream
Hoping for a sound, like a chirp from above.
Nothing can shake me except the person I loveChorus
I lose so much time, searching for the words to find you
but I lose all the words, as I hope one will find you
Every sheet of paper falls like leaves from the tree
Each rustle in the foliage tells that you’ve shaken meVerse 2
I don’t know what you’ve done with time or with me,
The hour hand spins as if it’s running out of time endlessly
I just want to keep this eternal moment in this place
but you make eternity feel like it quickly fades away
In a blur of seconds, too quick to perceive
Like star sparks, they leave the atmosphere
trying to remember the sequence of memories
is like re-singing the sequence of notes in a melodyBridge
your presence feels like a lovely bird,
nested in my thoughts, hearing the serenade of chirps
Makes the moment so beautiful, gentle, and kind.
A melody of comfort that calms my mind.Outro
Each note jumps from branch to branch,
In the rhythm of the wind, a waltz dance.
their pitches flies carried on the breeze,
A symphony of nature that puts my heart at ease. -
music poem – part 5 & 6
Aug 5, 2024
I really enjoy writing poems or songs. Here’s another song about loneliness and another about cliffs.
Verse 1
Lying here, the night is still,
Pillow soft, but I feel the chill.
Thoughts of you, they fill my mind,
In this silence, it’s your voice I find.Pre-Chorus
Tears fall like rain, I wipe them away,
Miles between us, but I long for the day.
day by day, life passes me by,
With my notebook, I think about you in the nightChorus
What are you doing, can you hear my call?
You’re the only one who can break this fall.
Your voice is comforting, a soothing sound,
In this lonely darkness, you’re all around.Verse 2
The sunset’s glow, it paints the sky,
A canvas of colors, as the night draws nigh.
But here in the shadows, I feel so blue,
Every line pleads, I’m missing you.Pre-Chorus
my mind echos your voice, loud and clear,
In every moment, I wish you were near.
Art in your touch, you create with grace,
But I’m here alone, in this empty space.Chorus
What are you doing, can you hear my call?
You’re the only one who can break this fall.
Your voice is comforting, a soothing sound,
In this lonely darkness, you’re all around.Bridge
So hand me a tissue, hold me close,
In this quiet hour, it’s you I need most.
With every song, I’m longing for you,
through these clouds, your love shines throughChorus
What are you doing, can you hear my call?
You’re the only one who can break this fall.
Your voice is comforting, a soothing sound,
In this lonely darkness, you’re all around.Outro
So here I sit, with thoughts of you,
In this silent night, I’ll make it through.
With every thought, you seem nearer,
wondering if you miss me as much as I miss you here.–
Chorus
I don’t want to sleep; I want to think of you,
You mean more to me than rest ever could do.
I’ll stay awake as long as you sing,
Holding on to this moment the edge of the brink.I love the way you dare to look down below,
Into the abyss where few would go.
Your awe captivates me, yet you turn your back,
With resolve in your eyes, you stay on your track.
A few stone blocks crumble, yet you stand so tall,
determined you’re facing the unknown, unafraid of the fall.The cliffs are steep and frightening high,
In deep despair, you’ve climbed without the fear of fall
one might think you’re weary of this life
But with everything to lose, you stand against it all.You feel it with every nerve, as the sky turns dangerously red,
You stand here unafraid, facing the unknown path
You don’t care how far you’ve strayed from what you once knew.
Embracing the wild, with nothing and everything to lose.With every step, you challenge fate
facing the dark, chasing the fear away
In the depths, your cry touches the edge of the cliff,
Your sound resounds against the walls, standing firm against the rift.Taking the full risk, ready to heed the call,
betting every part of your heart, and put your soul on top
No mountain is too high, no challenge to steep
with every heartbeat, your resolve runs deep.I look down below, then gaze back up at you,
You reach out your hand, pulling me through.
I’m not sure if we’re safer, but I feel the thrill,
For the view is breathtaking, and my heart is still.You pull me from the blue, easing my fear,
You hold my hand tightly, keeping me near.
In this moment together, we face what’s ahead,
With your strength beside me, I know I won’t dreadWith you, the cliff feels like a gentle rise,
You know my pockets, you see through my eyes.
I need nothing more than you, by my side
With your hand in mine, we’ll take depths and heights. -
done
Jul 31, 2024
I am done 👌 🥳 😎 & I am done. 🤯 🥵 😪
I feel half-dead. Hunched over, broken, and sick and tired. I haven’t slept in two and a half days. It’s like I’m in a waking coma, yet somehow moving in a lucid dream. I can’t believe how much caffeine I’ve consumed, I would have never dared to drink so much coffee, but the deadlines pushed me into it. Didn’t want to, but had to, just to force myself to stay awake and get things done. And I’m afraid of heart race and the moment when I have to sweat it all out.
That’s how I’ve been feeling for weeks. I’m so relieved that it’s finally over.
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Carried by Your Melody – music poem part 4
Jul 30, 2024
Carried by Your Melody
Verse 1
As you paint the lines for me
Knocking over my ink, letting it flow free,
Music Notes dance on the paper,
Like the universe is whispering to me.
Thoughts flow like a stream,
It’s like you’re guiding my hand,
With every stroke, I feel you close,
In this endless expanse.Chorus
I listen to your voice,
(I can’t get you off my mind)
You fill me with hope,
(Every word feels so kind)
I follow your notes,
Your voice is the melody that carries me.Verse 2
Where have you gone,
My glance follows your notes,
Where have you gone,
My mind follows your voice,
Every note you sing,
Feels like home to me,
Our paths unite,
in a well-known turn.
A gentle pull,
Like the moon and stars above,
You draw me in,Chorus
I listen to your voice,
(I can’t get you off my mind)
You fill me with hope,
(Every word feels so kind)
I follow your notes,
Your voice is the melody that carries me.Bridge
Thoughts soaked in ink,
Like fate’s own thread,
The Norns weave our story,
In every word that’s said.
Urd, Verdandi, Skuld,
Together they spin,
In this tale of ours,
Where the fate begins.Chorus
I listen to your voice,
(I can’t get you off my mind)
You fill me with hope,
(Every word feels so kind)
I follow your notes,
Your voice is the melody that carries me.Outro
I feel your presence near,
You’re so close to me
You paint the evening sky,
With shades of red and blue,
As stars begin to rise,
I find my way to you.
In every line I write,
With you by my side, -
Forgotten Bags
Jul 30, 2024
Here is something sad.
Verse 1
You pack my bags and set them by the door,
Nothing could capture my disappointment more,
Like the sight of a forgotten bag,
Holding all that I once held dear.
You fail to see the traces of sorrow you’ve left to me
I wait outside your door, sleeping in the stairwell,
Left alone in this bustling city,
Hoping against hope, still I dwell.Chorus
But you’ve buried our love deep,
I sit before its grave, naive and lost,
Wishing for a sign, a flicker of life,
While you hide away, leaving me to frost.
How can you be so cold, so cruel?
I wonder as the tears blur my sight,
Out of tissues, I’m drowning in sorrow,
In this endless, lonely night.Verse 2
You misunderstand me, can’t you see?
I can’t believe you’d do this to me,
The light flickers on and off in the hall,
Residents pass by, like I’m nothing at all.
I thought I was over you, swore I’d be fine,
But here I am, begging, lost in time.
You said to come, to share in your space,
Now I’m on the floor, pleading for grace.Chorus
But you’ve buried our love deep,
I sit before its grave, naive and lost,
Wishing for a sign, a flicker of life,
While you hide away, leaving me to frost.
How can you be so cold, so cruel?
I wonder as the tears blur my sight,
Out of tissues, I’m drowning in sorrow,
In this endless, lonely night.Bridge
One last look into your eyes,
I long to see your soul, to understand,
But you just shake your head,
With pity, you leave me to stand.
I wanted to help, to never let go,
Now I’m left hanging, feeling so low.
You asked me to come, but now I’m alone,
One door separates us, but I feel so far away from.
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