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  • Deep Blue

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    Verse 1
    I’m doing well, I’m doing bad,
    You love me, you don’t love me,
    I pick petals, one by one,
    Sitting in the meadow, where the flowers are done
    How are you? Thanks, I’m doing fine,
    But in my heart, someone committed a crime.
    My heart is broken, everything is stolen
    I sweep away the pile of shards unspoken

    Chorus
    The mood is down, the vibe is off
    I just mourn for someone, who’s not here anymore
    I sit lost at the bar of this club of broken hearts.
    Depressed, desperate, suffering and fucked up.

    Verse 2
    Have I told you, how much I hate you?
    Have I told you, how much I love you?
    I long for the days when everything was bright,
    But you don’t want that and can’t see any light
    My life would be fine if there wasn’t heartbreak
    It turns every truth into something that’s fake.
    You’re worth so much that everything is at stake
    Without you, I just don’t want to be awake.

    Verse 3
    I’m low as the basement, dark, gray and cold
    I search for the peace in the memories I hold.
    Take painkillers, they say, thinking it will help.
    As if it were that simple, I’m left here to yelp.
    It just feels like death, a pain that never fades,
    A constant reminder of the hope that decays.
    Hurt and disappointed, broken and feeling bad,
    A bit of everything, but mostly I’m feeling deeply sad

    Verse 4
    Not ready for the fall, I refuse to give in
    I don’t need a therapist… screw him
    I don’t want therapy, I wish you were here,
    I don’t want to die, I just wish you were near
    Then everything would be okay,
    With you by my side, we’ll find our way.
    Not ready for the downfall, not ready for the pain,
    Better cling to lies, to protect the heart’s reign.

    Verse 5
    In the world of infinite, it’s you what I miss.
    I have no idea. What did I do to deserve this?
    Always suffering so much, it pulls me down,
    Like a weight on my shoulders, I’m starting to drown.
    I just wanted the best, nothing bad, no strife,
    Yet the list of accusations remains in my life.
    Impossible to pay off these debts for you
    You’re more ruthless than the chess computer Deep Blue

    Outro
    Yet I carry on, not thinking, just doing,
    In the silence of the meadow, where the flowers are strewn.
    Everything goes on, but love stands still,
    For one who is everything, whom I cannot fulfill.

  • Fell in loop

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    Fell in loop

    Verse 1
    I’m too confused and too blind,
    To see it clearly, it’s hard to find.
    No hint is clear enough for me,
    I’m sending you a message, hoping that you see
    Hidden behind a screen, I write,
    I just love everything about you, you shine so bright.
    Your voice and your charm, your character too,
    Everything about you is beautiful and true.

    Chorus
    Now I sit here thinking only of you,
    Day in, day out, caught in this loop.
    Like a song I play on repeat,
    I’m just waiting for a sign, that i seek
    I need it like the air I breathe,
    What are you doing to me? I can’t believe.

    Verse 2
    When I first saw you, I never would have guessed,
    You’d become the most important, my heart’s request.
    That I think of you every day, it’s all I can do
    You give my life meaning, I’m drawn to you.
    When I first saw you, I didn’t know I was in love,
    You steal my sleep away, like a loud song that won’t stop.
    When I first saw you, I had no idea,
    Of the draw that pulls me near.

    Bridge
    Is it really true? Is it what I think it is?
    I still don’t know, I try to read your lips.
    I can’t believe it, nothing is what it seems
    Are you really there, or is it just a dream?
    Are you talking to me, or just in the air?
    Do you mean me, or someone else out there?

    Outro
    I fell in a loop, lost in my mind,
    Searching for answers, but they’re hard to find.
    With every heartbeat, I’m drawn to you,
    In this hidden space, what am I to do?
    Caught in a loop, can’t break free,
    Just a track away, will you find me?

  • Dans la nuit du parc

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    Dans la nuit du parc

    Verse 1
    Je t’écris cette lettre, le cœur encore blessé,
    Je sais que c’était un jeu, mais j’étais si vulnérable,
    Le choc fut trop fort, prends-moi avec douceur,
    Je cherche la paix de l’âme, loin de toute douleur.
    À me reposer dans un fauteuil, sans crainte, sans peur,
    Être serein, simplement, dans un monde de douceur.
    Sans redouter les hauteurs, ni la chute qui attend,
    Je rêve d’un avenir, où je serai apaisant.

    Refrain
    Dans la nuit du parc, où les ombres gardent,
    Je cherche des réponses, une nouvelle chance.
    Les étoiles brillent avec des secrets oubliés,
    Dans ce monde de silence, je veux m’évader.

    Verse 2
    Était-ce écrit ainsi ? Fallait-il que cela arrive ?
    Je ne le sais pas, mais c’est déjà fait,
    Le temps ne peut revenir, parfois tout va bien,
    Puis le moral s’effondre, comme un rêve incertain.
    Je marche la nuit dans le parc, sous un ciel étoilé,
    Quelques réverbères brillent, éclairant mon sentier.
    De lumière en lumière, je parcours l’obscurité,
    Sous les arbres majestueux, je me sens libéré.

    Bridge
    La nuit est comme un cimetière, quelques âmes égarées,
    Des chats qui frôlent mon chemin, dans la brume voilée.
    Marbre et vestiges antiques, immenses bibliothèques,
    Petites boutiques pleines d’artisanat, des trésors cachés.

    Refrain
    Dans la nuit du parc, où les ombres gardent,
    Je cherche des réponses, une nouvelle chance.
    Les étoiles brillent avec des secrets oubliés,
    Dans ce monde de silence, je veux m’évader.

    Verse 3
    La vieille ville aux maisons à colombages,
    Un décor romantique, un doux paysage.
    Ville pittoresque, tu me manques, c’est vrai,
    Dans tes ruelles étroites, je voudrais m’y plaire.
    Tout est si beau, comme dans un carnet de croquis,
    Je voulais être artiste, dessiner la vie.
    Une collection de belles images, un carnet de vers,
    Capturer l’atmosphère, comme un poète en l’air.

    Verse 4
    Et quand le temps s’arrête, que les ombres s’effacent,
    Je chérirai en moi le souvenir de ta trace.
    Chaque pas que je fais, chaque espoir que je bâtis,
    Me rapproche un peu plus de cette douce malice.
    Raconter des histoires à travers les images,
    J’aime cet endroit, mais je devais faire un passage.
    Je ne voulais pas vivre dans le passé,
    Il fallait avancer, vers un futur à tracer.

    Outro
    Dans la nuit du parc, je laisse mes pensées,
    S’envoler comme des feuilles, au gré des années.
    Avec l’espoir en moi, je continue d’avancer,
    Vers un nouveau horizon, où je peux avancer.

  • Photography fail

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    So, that was another fail action. I went out with my camera equipment and good lens because I wanted to take some pictures of the park since it was so beautifully quiet. And before all the leaves have fallen. And the next few days will be party nights again. I had everything with me, and it was beautiful, but when I took a photo, my camera showed me that I didn’t have a memory card in it.

    Well, now I remember the photos I once took in another park in a different city, which were also beautiful. These images are etched in my mind and remind me of solitary walks.

  • Photos of sky

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    After a rainy afternoon yesterday, the gray sky has taken on a beautiful hue. There is nothing more satisfying than a camera that captures colors accurately. Although my camera is 15 years old, the model is probably even older.

  • Camera

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    I will use my mirror reflex camera more often now, instead of just taking photos with my phone. I am very frustrated that I took all my camera equipment on my last trip, but then didn’t take a single photo. I am ashamed. But unfortunately, there just wasn’t enough time. Maybe next time.

  • Book of Poetry

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    For each poem, I wanted to draw one or more sketches and bind them into a book.

  • feeling cold

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    I’m not yet ready for autumn… 🙁

  • Rainy Notes

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    Verse 1
    Sitting by the window,
    The sky is a dull gray,
    On an old wooden chair,
    In a top attic flat, I stay
    Raindrops tap on the glass,
    As my neighbor plays piano keys,
    While I sit here writing,
    In this gentle, rainy breeze.

    Chorus
    Oh, the chill in the air,
    As the cold wind flows,
    Searching for a sweater,
    To warm my weary soul.
    Surrounded by red rooftops,
    Peeking through the trees,
    a church tower peak sprawls.
    In this quiet melody.

    Verse 2
    I hear the soft piano,
    As he practices his song,
    I wonder if I should take lessons,
    And play along with him.
    Watching raindrops falling,
    The rooftops drenched and wet,
    Like a cat caught in the downpour,
    Rainy notes, that softly tap.

    Chorus
    Oh, the chill in the air,
    As the cold wind flows,
    Searching for a sweater,
    To warm my weary soul.
    Surrounded by red rooftops,
    Peeking through the trees,
    a church tower peak sprawls.
    In this quiet melody.

    Verse 3
    Black and white picture,
    Same as the piano keys,
    Moments have a vintage feel,
    Where time stands still.
    The fingers worn by tapping,
    knowing each sequence well.
    There’s a case with pencils,
    And a notebook with stories to tell.

    Bridge
    Autumn’s creeping in too fast,
    I feel the weight of gray,
    Everything’s so dull and dreary,
    Before it’s even day.
    A rainy afternoon,
    In a few hours, it’ll be dark.
    Sipping on my caffeine,
    As the raindrops leave their mark.

    Chorus
    Oh, the chill in the air,
    As the cold wind flows,
    Searching for a sweater,
    To warm my weary soul.
    Surrounded by red rooftops,
    Peeking through the trees,
    a church tower peak sprawls.
    In this quiet melody.

    Outro
    So many notes upon my desk,
    Like keys upon the piano,
    As we both play our melodies,
    In this rainy, soft glow.
    I’ll wrap myself in warmth,
    And brew a cup of tea,
    While the music fills the silence,
    In this moment, just him and me.

  • Trolley Problem

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    by

    blue hat
    in

    Verse 1
    I hate my life, it’s a heavy load,
    Thought I’d be gone by now, lost in thoughts.
    I’m just continuing to live, so no one will cry.
    But deep down inside, I’m just waiting to die.
    Everything feels empty, nothing left to feel,
    I keep walking forward, trapped in the scene
    Hoping for an end, but too scared to let go,
    Caught in this shell, dead inside, moving slow.

    Chorus
    I hate my life, I expect nothing more,
    Just trying to find peace, but I’m lost at the floor.
    My goal is to face the fear of the end,
    Keeping it at bay, like a long-lost friend.
    Waiting for the train, as it rolls down the track,
    Killing time in the background, but I can’t turn back.

    Verse 2
    It’s a sad existence, no one wants to trade,
    No one wants to feel this pain that I’ve made.
    Shame weighs on me, like a heavy chain,
    In this lonely existence, I’m the one to blame.
    I watch the world move, but I’m stuck in place,
    Searching for a reason, but I can’t find grace.
    Every day’s a struggle, just to get by,
    Living in loneliness, where dreams are dying.

    Chorus
    I hate my life, I expect nothing more,
    Just trying to find peace, but I’m lost at the floor.
    My goal is to face the fear of the end,
    Keeping it at bay, like a long-lost friend.
    Waiting for the train, as it rolls down the track,
    Killing time in the background, but I can’t turn back.

    Bridge
    There’s probably no spark, just darkness inside,
    A flicker of doubt, where I can’t confide.
    If I take a step, will it change anything?
    Or am I just waiting for the hope that love brings?

    Outro
    I hate my life, and I’m stuck in this place,
    Searching for meaning in a world without trace.
    With every step forward, I feel the same strain,
    No longer just waiting, I’ll stay in the rain.

    *Hidden Verse
    Caught in a dilemma, like the trolley on the track,
    Do I pull the lever, or just let it roll back?
    Choices weigh heavy, lives hang in the balance,
    In this cruel game, there’s no room for solace.
    Every decision feels like a life on the line,
    In a world of gray, where the sun refuse to shine.

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