Artist’s Blog

  • Silent Waves

    While the screen is idle,
    I watch the waves drift in circles.

    The tide is low,
    Reflections in water,
    They’re moving, fast and slow.
    They’re like thoughts that come and falter.
    Sorrows – they come and go
    Don’t worry, they won’t last, that’s all I know.

    I take a look at the shore,
    With gentle ripples flowing by my side.
    Ready to embrace the world,
    While I watch the worries take flight.

    Your mind is a lake,
    I try to nudge you and throw a stone inside,
    Hoping to reach your heart and you’ll reply.

    I’ll sit here and wait,
    While the silent waves are slowly passing by,
    Bringing heaven, as waves wash ashore the sky.

    I’ll be always there,
    to ease your mind and to take care.
    I’ll be always near,
    to calm you down when you’re in need.
    We let time stand still,
    and enjoy our minds drift away with ease.
    Let’s slow it down,
    In this moment we’ll be safe and sound.

    With a peace of mind,
    We find solace, where worries are left behind.
    No clouds above,
    The reflections are clear as the water flows,
    All you need is love,
    And a few hugs we can share forevermore.
    Leaves gently sway,
    We watch the silent waves slowly drift away.

    I’ll sit here and wait,
    While the silent waves are slowly passing by,
    Bringing heaven, as waves wash ashore the sky.

    Your sound echos to my mind,
    like silent waves they move in circles.
    In the stillness, thoughts unwind,
    They bring soothing calm in this cycle.

  • 07th October

    It’s 0:00. I can’t sleep. I’m sitting in bed in pajamas, listening to my favorite song and just started to draw a sketch in my new notebook and write a few lines. 🌜

  • studying

    Hi everyone! My semester break is over. This is likely my last semester if everything goes well. I probably won’t have much time for creative projects as I need to focus on my studies. I hope it won’t be too stressful, and that I can still find some time for hobbies. I’m also working on other projects that I can’t share just yet. Next year, I plan to be more active! After this, I can officially call myself a designer *sheesh* :D, which feels like a happy ending, especially after I was rejected from the art academy back then.

  • Ramen

    Eating some ramen on a shelf after work and drink a glass of Oolong tea. Feeling quite happy, but a bit lonely.

  • Blank Textfile

    Blank Textfile

    Verse 1
    There’s a blank text file,
    I don’t know where to start.
    I don’t know what to write,
    To deeply reach your heart.
    I take a look at the sunset,
    A blue sky with hues of violet.
    Someone was heavenly sent,
    To help me find the words I meant.

    Pre-Chorus
    Your sounds surround me,
    They ease my solitude and fears.
    Every note brings me closer.
    and make me feel you’re near.

    Chorus
    You mean everything to me,
    While you don’t know my name,
    Probably you won’t ever see,
    That deep down, I feel the same.

    Verse 2
    I feel inwardly broken,
    So many words unspoken.
    While I try to find peace,
    My sorrow presses on the keys.
    The textfile fills with ease,
    Writing down pain, hoping for release.
    I don’t know what drives me,
    To think about you and write here.

    Pre-Chorus
    I don’t why I think about you,
    Or what drives me to pursue,
    And why I take so much care,
    But I wish I could be there.

    Chorus
    You mean everything to me,
    While you don’t know my name,
    Probably you won’t ever see,
    That deep down, I feel the same.

    Verse 3
    I wish you’d be here,
    To complete the piece.
    To fulfill what I need,
    You make my worries cease.
    I hope you’re doing well.
    I don’t know how to tell,
    I don’t know how to say,
    That I think about you every day.

    Pre-Chorus
    I wish you’d be my friend,
    I just wish we were two.
    All the messages I send,
    Are meant to reach you.

    Chorus
    You mean everything to me,
    While you don’t know my name,
    Probably you won’t ever see,
    That deep down, I feel the same.

    Outro
    You’re the reason why,
    the text file won’t stay blank
    You’re the one,
    who’s been heavenly sent.
    You’re the person,
    who makes me smile and laugh.
    I wish you to be here,
    And stay with me till the end.




  • Waiting here

    Waiting Here

    Verse 1
    I’m sitting on the stairs
    where you once sat.
    It’s a nice spot to chill,
    and to take some stills
    I’m waiting here for you,
    where are you now?
    I would like to reach you,
    but I don’t know how.

    Verse 2
    I miss you dearly,
    I’m sitting on cold stone.
    I hope you’re healing
    and you’ll be back soon.
    I know the fear and the pain.
    but someday it will fade away
    All you desire is there,
    with feelings that we share.

    (Chorus)
    I’ll call you up, hoping you’ll pick tonight.
    Or maybe you’ll call back, I’m waiting in vain,
    Just sitting here, feeling the plain.
    Even if the level rises due to the rain.

    Don’t you worry, it’ll be alright,
    we’re just dipping our feet in the water
    Just chill, there’s hope in sight.
    In this peaceful moment, we won’t go under.

    Verse 3
    I check your profile,
    no updates in sight,
    Please reach out soon,
    I hope you’ll write
    I’d love to text you,
    hope you see my note,
    Wishing I could be there,
    like a faithful rescue dog.

    Verse 4
    I hope I’m not too late,
    But here I’ll patiently wait,
    Even if you’ve walked away,
    I’ll hold on to hope each day.
    I wish for your presence,
    That would be so pleasant.
    In the meantime, I sit here and wait,
    and watch the waves drift away.

    (Chorus)
    I’ll call you up, hoping you’ll pick tonight.
    Or maybe you’ll call back, I’m waiting in vain,
    Just sitting here, feeling the plain.
    Even if the level rises due to the rain.

    Don’t you worry, it’ll be alright,
    we’re just dipping our feet in the water
    Just chill, there’s hope in sight.
    In this peaceful moment, we won’t go under.

  • Gray Sweater

    Verse 1
    Why is it only me, always suffering?
    I just keep driving in fear and laughing
    I’m too weak to resist. I give in – fuck it.
    Am I lucky or do I feel like a piece of shit?

    Chorus
    I don’t know, I know nothing,
    Everything seems fine, but I’m just fronting.
    Not happy, not sad, just repressing the pain,
    Wondering if you’re happier now, or if it’s all in vain.

    Verse 2
    I could only watch as you rack yourself.
    I’m picking up empty bottles, cleaning up the mess.
    I’m not worth it, always guilty of it all,
    Never good enough, feeling so small.

    Chorus
    I don’t know, I know nothing,
    Everything seems fine, but I’m just fronting.
    Not happy, not sad, just repressing the pain,
    Wondering if you’re happier now, or if it’s all in vain.

    Bridge
    Always disappointed you, you see the downside
    They tell me just to let go, but I can’t hide.
    Should I just be patient? Is there a sign?
    Is it better or worse? Is there a flicker of light?

    Verse 3
    Can I handle this, or will I fall in despair?
    Trust has crumbled, but I’m still standing here.
    Everything is pointless, wearing this gray sweater,
    It’s a gray rainy day, with vast fields of gray heather.

    Chorus
    I don’t know, I know nothing,
    Everything seems fine, but I’m just fronting.
    Not happy, not sad, just repressing the pain,
    Wondering if you’re happier now, or if it’s all in vain.

    Outro
    I’m cursed to feel depressed,
    But I am sick and tired of being sad.
    It’s always the same old story.
    Not heartache again. I’m feeling sorry.

  • 2

    Ah, what a mess. My keyboard is acting up again. It keeps typing the number ‘2’ all the time, and I don’t know why. Someone mentioned it might be a Bluetooth issue, but I couldn’t find anything about it. It’s really frustrating—especially when I’m trying to write. This also happened to me during exam season, and I had to stop and wait until it was normal again.

  • Cold Tea

    Cold Tea

    Verse 1
    Have you forgotten me?
    I feel left like a cold cup of tea.
    I’m waiting for your call,
    But it feels like nothing at all.

    Chorus
    I miss you to the moon and back,
    But all I feel is this empty lack.
    Staring at my phone, no new messages,
    Wondering if you’ve left me, I guess.

    Verse 2
    Are you ignoring me on purpose,
    Or are you just too busy to write?
    Leaving me alone, feeling worthless.
    Our moments fade into the night.

    Chorus
    I miss you to the moon and back,
    But all I feel is this empty lack.
    Staring at my phone, no new messages,
    Wondering if you’ve left me, I guess.

    Bridge
    I pour another cup, but it’s gone cold,
    Just like the warmth of the love we hold.
    Three minutes to wait for the tea to brew,
    But you forgot that I’m waiting to see you.

    Chorus
    I miss you to the moon and back,
    But all I feel is this empty lack.
    Staring at my phone, no new messages,
    Wondering if you’ve left me, I guess.

    Outro
    So here I sit with my cold tea,
    Wondering if I still mean anything to you.
    Patience is a test, I feel like crying
    Will you ever come back, or is this a goodbye?

  • sigh

    Have you forgotten me

    and left me behind like a cold cup of tea? 😮‍💨 🍵

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